Selective Irreverance..

Archive for September, 2009

I’ve got a bad feeling about this..

I think I am depressed.

Heavy emphasis on the think. It’s been awhile since I’ve felt like I don’t care about anything. I’ve just retained a lackadaisical attitude about everything. The only thing I care about at the moment is dance but that’s only because I desire to lose 40 lbs.  (Honestly I’d probably look hella weird if I lost that much weight but meh.)

It’s definitely different than the last time.  It’s not that serious but eh. I think I am. Again. Lame.

I actually got a verbal warning at work for my attendance. I can honestly say that they looked at me and asked me things like “Why are you late?” and “What are you going to do to change it?” . I really wanted to tell them that I couldn’t give a damn, because the gas that I put into my car doesn’t even cover me sitting there. That and the fact that my job is crap, the pay is crap, and the environment itself is unfair since the managers love to write you up for not obeying the rules but they can’t follow them like everyone else because they now have sonme sense of authority.

But I can’t do that.

I think that’s what irritates me the most at my job.

Example: This morning I was sitting at my desk rarther irritated because some girl decided to yell/curse/etc at me because she can’t pay her bill and wouldn’t let me get a word in edgewise. When I told her to stop cursing at me she hung up. I really wanted to tell her to commit suicide..but..I digress. Anyways, one of the ladies who..well I don’t don’t know what she does. But she has to be a supervisor/office person/etc. because whips out her cell phone and starts texting someone. And then says “Oh well I was texting her but she’s standing right in front of me!” .

Why was I irritated? Because my company has a NO CELL PHONE policy plastered all over the walls. It states that you may get a form of disciplinary action if you are caught with it. I’ve seen people get on write ups for simply putting their phone in their back pocket. Buit, because it was out, that’s why they were written u.

But because the manager of the building is married to the boss all of her friends and supervisors are allowed to do as they please. I have half a mind to write corporate a letter pointing out all the faux pas there.

I think I’ll just wait until I find another means of employment.

Pieces of Jennifer’s body..

what do you want for your birthday?
To see my boyfriend. Really..that’s all I want.

what were you doing at 10 o clock this morning?
Working.

Do you believe in karma?
Yep.

could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your bf/gf?
No. If one of them did, well..I hope the cops are on speed dial.

do you currently have a hickey?
No.

what would you do if you walked in on your best friend having sex?
Laugh and walk away.

have you ever dated someone because of their looks?
Not just because they’re pretty.

are you one of those Jonas Brother obbsessed people?
lol. I’ll admit to liking the middle Jonas.

do you know anybody with a genital piercing?
Drew M.

do any of your friends have tounge rings?
No.

what kind of shoes did you wear today?
My converse.

what jewelry are you wearing?
Bellybutton ring and earrings.

how is your hair styled right now?
It’s down.

do you know anyone that smokes weed?
A few people, actually. But that’s their bidness.

are your fingernails painted?
Yes, but they’re chipped.

do you have any plans for the day after tomorrow?
Thursday..just work.

do you have a good relationship with your parents?
For the most part.

how much cash do you have on you?
Some change in my wallet but that’s about it.

can you honestly say that at this point and time your happy with the way things are going ?
For the most part. If I can get a job that pays well and accommodates my life..that would make it great.

is there someone you don’t ever want to be out your life?
4 people.

did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 48 hours?
No.

does someone like you right now?
Someone loves me right now.

is there a person that you can go to in sweats, hair a mess, and still feel comfy?

My boyfriend. Even though that’s a rarity because I’m obsessed with looking pretty all the time..but apparently I’m beautiful when I feel I’m at my worst.

Looking back in time did you ever waste your time on a certain boy or girl?
A year ago I probably would have said yes.

do you think age matters in relationships?
Only mentally.

what is the last non-alcoholic drink you had?
Water.

who is the first person you would call if you REALLY needed help?
Jon or Danielle.

what do you currently hear right now
Criminal Minds. I adore Dr. Reid!

have you accidentally sent a text to the wrong person?
Yes. lol.

where was the last place you lied down other than your own bed?
My couch. It’s become my space since the boy left.

is there somebody in your life that you could not survive without?
A few people.

what are some things that always gets you through the day?
Oxygen and talking to my love.

does anyone of the opposite sex have the same name as you?
No. lol. That would be weird.

is there a boy/girl that you would do absolutely anything for?
Jon and my brother.

highlight of your day?
Talking to my love. I miss him terribly.

are there any posters in your room?
Monsieur Johnny Depp.

are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
I want both! Oh money..

what was the most stressful thing for you this week ?
Going to the DMV. I hate that place!

do kids in lower grades below you annoy you?

Not so much people in lower grades but some people the same age as me. I don’t understand why some people at 23/24 just graduated high school and are supposedly trying to get a nursing degree, and 3 kids later find out you’re pregnant with your 4th and you still haven’t figured it out.

are you a talkative person?
If I’m on subject I know a lot about.

what kind of neighborhood do you live in?
I live in a War Zone.

What do you want?

Money and to see my boyfriend.

Will you be one of those old people with 11 cats?
LOL. No. I will have one puppy who will probably be my bff.

have you ever been called beautiful?
Yes.

take your pick, cupcakes or muffins?
Cuppy cakes.

what happend last night?
Supposed to go out but I wound up talking to my boyfriend all night.

do you wish someone would call you?
Yes.

have you ever heard a young child swear?
You have no idea.

do you get jealous easily?
Sometimes. I’ve been good at curbing it as much as possible lately though.

what were you doing at ten last night?
Talking to Jon.

do you miss someone?
Yes.

first and middle name?
Jasmine and my middle name is NOYB.

do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yes.

have you ever dated two people at once?
No.

is there anything you are looking forward to at the moment?
Didn’t I answer this already?

so, what if you married and had kids with the last person you kissed?
LOL. Cue the first horseman of the Apocalypse.

would you rather watch football or baseball?

Soccer.

what color is your hair brush?
Blue.

do you care too much/not at all/just enough?
Too much.

have you ever kissed someone with the same first initial as you?
Yes.

can money buy happiness?
Temporarily.

do you sleep with socks on?
No.

would you rather sleep alone or with someone else?
Someone else.

last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20?
Rebekah.

when’s the last time you fell asleep watching a movie?
Last night.*snuggle*

Rant: I work with idiots.

So I come back from work from a much needed break on Wednesday and I come back to a lot of crap on my desk that wasn’t mine. I found a headset (which was from my boss so that I didn’t mind) but also found someone who left their pictures and fruit punch bottle (gross. I would never drink that) and a note on my super awesome Nightmare Before Christmas sticky notes that said “Clean up” in purple ink.

STOP RIGHT THERE.

Someone actually had the nerve to use my desk, leave their nasty concentrated fruit punch drink bottle, leave pictures of children that obviously are not mine and then leave me a message on MY sticky notes that aren’t mine, and the icing on the cake..leave a PRINGLE CAN IN MY DESK and have the nerve, the gall to tell me to clean up? Who would do such a STUPID thing?

And then when my monitor came on who had forgot to log out of my computer? RAQUITA. (And I’m going to use her name because I believe the entire world should be warned of this twit.) Which pissed me off royally since  this bitch steals pens from my desk on a constant basis and also left a mess on MY DESK and then had the nerve to tell me to clean up.

REALLY?

So I left a message that said:

“If it’s too messy for you, don’t sit here.”

She then comes in to work which already made me annoyed since I cannot stand her existence and sat down in the desk next to me. After awhile when everyone left she looks at me and said “Jasmine, there were tons of bugs near your desk”. So then I asked her “Well, if I don’t drink sugary drinks nor eat food in/out/around my desk, how did I magically get bugs around my desk?” to which she replied “I don’t know. But I cleaned up over there”. And then only thing I could do is laugh at her assumption that I’m dirty.

Logically, I shouldn’t have bugs around my desk. But let’s take this..

Raquita and her cousin sit next to me. They both drink sugary drinks which they leave open everyday, eat chips and all sorts of candy which they leave inside their desks (and mine since I come into work and there are crumbs and grains of sugar everywhere)  and then you have the nerve to sit there and accuse me of being dirty? If I did have bugs at my desk, it’s not because of anything I did.

So afterwards the only thing I could do is laugh because she’s a two-faced idiot who can’t put two + two together. And I heard her whisper to a co-worker about me and then have the nerve to say outloud “You know..you leave for 4 days and leave your stuff a mess”.. and the only thing I could think of was.. “YOU LEFT A DAMN PRINGLE CONTAINER IN MY DESK YOU IDIOT”.

There’s a part of me that really wanted to do this:

But I’ll take the high road and laugh at her ignorance since she’ll be on welfare for the rest of her life ripping off the government while I move on to better things than to deal with low rent mealy mouthed idiots.

You do something to me that I can’t explain..

Would your mom care if she found condoms in your room?
No. I’m sure she knows what goes on by now.

Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hardest for, what do you say?
I wouldn’t even answer it. I’m so annoyed with him right now.

Did you speak to your father today?
I did yesterday.

If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be?
My boyfriend.

What do you think about the weather?
I don’t know..I haven’t looked outside lately.

Are you ticklish?
Ridiculously.

Who’s car were you in last?
Eli’s.

Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes.

How many people do you trust with everything?
No one.

What was the last thing you drank?
Water.

Have you ever been asked out by someone you didn’t want to be with?
Yes.

Is there anyone you want to come see you?
I want to see my boyfriend.

Name one thing you love about winter?
It’s pretty outside.

When shower you start the water and then get in, or get in then start it?
Start the water and then get in.

Does anything on your body itch right now?
No.

Does every family have a crazy uncle?
I don’t.

Have you ever had sex in a tent?
No. But I want to.

What about in a boat?
No.

Have you ever dated a Goth?
No.

Can you fix your own car?
Some things.

Do you find it hard to trust others?
Yes.

What were you doing at 4am this morning?
Sleeping.

Does anyone call you babe or baby?
Yes.

How’s your most recent ex doing?
He’s fine. Working a lot.

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
No.

If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?
Of course I would.

Would you kiss an ugly person for $1,000?
Yes..bad I know.

What’s the very first thing you do when you wake up?
Groan.

Do you always find it cute when a girl/guy calls you babe/baby?
As long as I’m seeing the person, yes.

What do you usually do when the clock turns 11:11?
Wish!

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
Justin.

What are you wearing on your feet?
Nothing.

Do you check your texts right away when you receive them?
Most of the time.

Have you ever searched for your house on Google Earth?
No.

You wake up, all your hair is gone, your first reaction?
Cry!

Are you listening to music right now?
No.

Last time you texted your number one?
I don’t even bother texting him anymore. He loves me so he says.

Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
No.

What did you have for breakfast?
Nothing.

The last person you kissed, how many times have you cried really hard in front of them?
Once. Any other time he’s walked in on me crying.

Two days from now this time, where will you be?
Probably right here.

Has anyone upset you in the last week?
Yes.

Do you believe your ex cares about you?
So he says.

Are you short?
I’m average.

Have you ever dyed your hair an unnatural color?
Yes.

Do you think your wasting your time on the person you like?
I’d like to think I’m not.